.Friday, January 6, 2012 ' 3:31 AM Y
hi baby,
I love you alot and I miss you..
and yes i know u find it unfair that other ppl can come my house but u cant. i know that too. i dont know how to reply you because i really want u to be part of my family too but u know how its like.. in my mind is confused because idk if ure being serious even though u know it will put me in a awkward situation or ure just unhappy he gets to come my house..
BUT whatever it is. i will miss you very much in thailand. please take care of yourself okay? if your back really hurts tell your bro so he can bring u to a specialist or see a doctor.. oh and have fun at the chalet.. :)
OK sorry i just had to say something. I HOPE IM NOT BEING NAGGY. i was thinking about it jusst now. i know and i can sense that u were abit unhappy about the tedric thing right. do u realise something? i could have not told u about it at all like what u did. it was honestly NOTHING and it was with trena. and do u oso know another difference is tedric has no interest in me at all he has a girlfriend compared to a guy who is single and i know that he likes me. obviously i know u will be a LITTLEEE but unhappy but u have no reason not to trust me.
the thing that i still cant get over is, what were u feeling when u were with her and lying to me. i keep thinking how u can do that. like.. did u even feel ANY guilt when u were beside her or.. it felt too good that u didnt care. someone there to act cute and give u attention. im serious about it. since that time right, i keep thinking and thinking. How and what were u feeling during that moment. how could u do all of that and tell ur frens u wont leave me cos of her but still give her a chance to get close to you.
i dont know why am i talking about this now when its supposed to be a 'farewell' see you when im back in SG blog post..
i guess its cos ive been thinking about that and i wanted to tell u how i felt before i left. hahahaha.
its just SOOOOOOOOOo annoying that u were the one who decided to meet her at CP that day and then she intro u a drink and woo become your fav drink and it jusst makes me kind of sad to think that her attention probably made u happy. is like i can visualise u 2 talking and laughing obviously because she liked you. im sorry. i know its the past. but u know it , that deep in my heart it will always be there. some days it just randomly comes out and then i talk about it again. u can call me weak minded, or sensitive. whatever. ok nothing more .
ANDDDDDDDDD, PLS BABY stop saying things u dont mean. rmb that mnight we talked until late. i thought u knew what i meant.. and then the Macs thing happened. u still can tell me that u quitted and then took up again. its like.. nevermind. just try to think before u say something ok? i know i shouldnt care but u cant be so selfish and just think for yourself . not about the macs, about every other thing that u said for fun.
BACK TO MY MAIN POINT BABY.
at the end of the day, u know i love you the most. i wish i could spend everyyday with you. anddd i miss you alrady :( ill try to get some souvenir for you!!! MUACKSSSSS NIGHTX x3
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