.Sunday, April 8, 2012 ' 3:04 PM Y
hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii happy 2years and 10 months !
I really like the prata there so I'm happy to be there with you too ! and next time when we move house we can go there eat many many times~ its near ! :)
We can always have supper together by then ! haha and be a big fat pork together =p !
I think i just made you angry! sorrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy T.T (<<< tehtarik sad face!)
Babyyyy, I just hope that time would ease the pain that i've caused and love you more and more is only what i can do..
I promise to my promise to my promise to my promise to my promise to my promise x 1000000 under the name of OreO & DonutS blog and our 2y10m relationship that I will not lie to you again.. Even if its the worst news ever i will not hide it from u, I don't want that night to ever happen again to see you in that state is indescribably hurtful and I don't want you to ever go through that kind of hurt again. i love you !
iloveyou !!!
. ' 3:01 AM Y
its our............. 2year and 10th month today!!!
i know right so rare i decide to blog! hahaha. was thinking of blogging in MY blog but decided to blog here ! OUR blog :)
Soo we met!! and ate prawn meeeee and roti prata!! idk if u like to go there but i love all the foooodieeeeeeeee :X make me fattt! hhahahaha. and watched "Mirror Mirror" which was nicer than ive expected! hahhaha. i always enjoy being with you.. i know ive said it before but its true. ure the only person other than family that i can be myself. idk if thats good/bad for you but its good for me! like i can talk to you about anything anywhere and i know u will stop to listen to me, or like when im unhappy about something u will defend for me (most of the time). and silence is never awkward with you. we can sit in the bus without talking and still feeel equally happy :) is like i dont have to make myself find sth to talk to you or keep u occupied. and thats really what i love about our relationship.
If i have to say this, im sorry for always bring up that incident. i guess you kind of know that i sometimes talk about her. the truth is, it was so easy to forgive but i dont know how to forget. really. yes, we can be happy again like how we are now, but there are many times when something remind me of her i'll start thinking alot again. like, when u said u saw her in audi before, straight away i start thinking about how u download and play with her, maybe u thought of breaking up in audi to be with her cos u dun think we will play it anymore, and maybe when u find out i want play audi again then you remarry us again. hahahaha. oh well.
and that day with danielle we drank gong cha then i saw your drink!! then ya i thought about everything again.. told danielle and ask her why so hard to forget. somehow i just really fear that you will lie to me again.. because you did it so well that time. thats why i thought about my neighbour that sent me. i told danielle i was tempted to actually do what you did to me. maybe know him and go out but not tell you because it meant nothing to me, although he says he likes me and will wait for me. i just felt that no matter how much you try, u dont understand how much you hurt me. i myself dun understand how come i am so hurt by that. thats why i thought if you went through then you will finally know how i feel. :( idk why im talking about this when there's nothing we can do about it. i just felt like saying how i feel. i wont say that i dont trust you.. i do. its just something inside me that always fear somehow, that if someone wanna lie, its not like im ever going to find out. at least not until the future.
i think ive said this before.. but on the account that we have been together for 3 years. Can u really honestly promise not to lie to me? i really think that although the truth may hurt but its really really better.. at least for me. that day at the bbq, hx and wc were saying at the bus stop that im like really the best girlfriend that if anything happen or u dun appreciate then its your loss. but i find that NOT TRUE. LOL. im not the "best" gf. i try to be but i know i have many flaws myself. and anyway i decided not to revenge because what good does revenge do for us. yes it may make u realise how hard it is to trust me fully again, but you'd be hurt. why would i want you to be hurttt? hahaha. and i choose to believe that we will work out eventually. and i will stop remembering every single detail.
honestly if u wanna know, i see her profile everyday. for what? i also dont know. i really dont know :( haii. nevermind.. idk why i will suddenly type so much also. haha.
the main point is.. i love you alot, and i will never want to hurt you, and you dont have any reason to doubt me. :) andd, im sorry that i cant say that i KNOW you wont lie to me again but i hope so because i really wanna spend manyyyy more years with u ^^ i know u promised before thaat u wont lie.. but i dont know if you remember :/ HAHA.
SORRY FOR THE EMO POST. HAPPY OCCASION...!!!
its been 34 minutes x3 many more minutes/months/years/decades/centuries !! :D
i love you baby.
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